What do I do. My bf is upset that I am bulimic.. Although he knew about this before we dated, he was very upset when I didn’t go to school the other day and wouldn’t eat on our date. I confessed that despite my 5mos string of being healthy, I had a relapse. He left the table and when I followed him to the car he said he wasn’t sure about “this.” Then he just stopped.
Yes ik that I need to be careful because ever since I started almost a year ago I lost 30 lbs and if I drop 30lbs again I will be very very underweight, and it’s a very nasty thing—- but, on one hand I feel like he should mind his own, but on the other, I don’t want to hurt him he really does care about me. but i can’t take back my relapse. And I feel like if he dumps me because of it, I may get worse..
How do I bring up this conversation with him again so I can explain to him it’s my own personal demon and I can’t stop just because he says “stop.”?? Ughhhhhhh I was doing very well but after my small relapse and him saying “i can’t do this” I think I’m hearing an old familiar voice say “if you were skinnier he’d stay.”